Went to the Warm Up event at PS1 - MoMA in Queens today…

The last time I had gone was last year…
The last party of that year with François K…
I had an amazing time then…

Had an amazing time today…
Today’s event had Doc Martin headlining…

Great house music under a beautiful blue sky…

A cool breeze blowing by…

Magic Hat Number 9 on tap…

It’s moments like this that makes life worth living…

*grin*

(The photo is from one of last year’s events)

I’d be using my hands to play with more than just it’s buttons…

For my fellow bloggers who were curious as to what a PSP is…
Here’s a link for ya…

Playstation.com - PSP

PSP stands for PlayStation Portable

It’s kinda like a GameBoy…

It plays games…
(Very high quality games…)

But you can also:
-Listen to music…
-Watch videos…
-Look at photos…
-Download content through a USB connection from your computer…
and
-Surf the net and connect with fellow gamers through WiFi…

All stuffed in my back pocket…

I love it…

I never leave home without it…

I’d be going down on it right now. I finally got that 2.0 update I’ve been fiending for for 2 weeks. Guess who’s blogging from it right now?

Well… I ended up going to the
Latex Ball
last night…

No it’s not a bondage convention…

It’s the annual vogue ball that the extension of the GMHC…
The House of Latex…
throws every year…

It’s a fundraiser promoting safe sex and HIV prevention…
Gearing it toward the Ballroom community…
Which is comprised mainly of Black and Latin Gay men and women…

For those not familiar with what voguing, balls,
and what the ballroom community is about…
I suggest renting…
Paris Is Burning
and going to
The Underground Culture of Balls
(Put together by the House of Enigma)
for more information…

I’ve always been facinated by the Ballroom scene…
And have tried to go to this event every year…

I had a great time…
And yes it ran late…
It could have been organized better…
And there were dead times at times…
But all in all I had a “ball”…

The performances were tight…
The girls were giving face…
And the boys were giving body…
(Boy… were they ever… woof.)

It was a Rock em’ Sock em’ time…

I found a great blog through The WOW report…
It’s called…

PostSecret

The idea of the blog is to anonymously mail…
A secret written on a 4×6 postcard of any material…
And then select ones are posted…

“Be brief - the fewer words used the better.
Be legible– - use big, clear and bold lettering.
Be creative - let the postcard be your canvas.”

Some are beautiful…
Some are disturbing…
Some are just plain funny…

Go check it out…

Well…
This weekend has come and gone…

And life threw me multiple loops…

One of my favorite cousins had her wedding this weekend…
It was a beautiful ceremony and a great reception…
It was probably the first reception where I actually danced at…
(Being in the dance music industry…
I’m not very fond of mobile DJ’s…)
But the DJ ended up playing some decent Reggaeton…
And Salsa… so

I’m very proud of her…
She had her wedding the way she wanted…
And didn’t kowtow to family pressures
concerning certain aspects of how it was to go…
It was her day…
Well, hers and her hubby…
But, yes… it was hers to make the way she wanted.
I very very proud.

But before I left…
I was given the news that one of my good friends…
Found out that his ex died…
The aspect of his death, I’ll leave out…
That’s his business…
But all in all…
I’m very sad for him…
They were very close…
And his death was a shock…
Something unexpected…
My heart goes out to him…

Then…
For some apparent reason…
Maybe the ending of a season…
The wind blowing a different way…
I dunno…
But I decided to tell my Parents I was Gay this weekend…

*eeek*

Pretty much everyone else in my family knows I’m Gay…
My parents were the last to know…
I have never been really close to my family…
Some more than others…
But when it came to my parents…
I’m pretty much distant from them…
One of the main reasons was because of my sexuality…
The other reasons…
well…
That’s a whole other post…

But…
I’ve been satisfied with not telling them…
Because I believed that it made no consequence on my life…
But I was wrong…
I had a hole to fill in concerning who I am…
I always wanted to stand up for Gay issues…
But it’s hard to do when you can’t even
tell your parents that you’re Gay…
I’ve also decided to be more visual about my sexuality…
Not skirting around the issue as much…
If a situaltion comes up…
Facing up to the matter to tell someone that I’m gay…
I’m getting better about it…
But I still have to feel more comfortable…

My Dad reacted the way he usually does…
Ended up not saying anything…
Staying out of the matter…
And continuing on watching TV…

My mother on the other hand…

*Oye Vey*

She broke down…
Crying and screaming…
With the statements and questions that I was luckily prepared for…

But I didn’t expect how hard she took it…

“Why did you do this to us?”

“I tried to raise my children right.”

“I worked so hard…”

“Be careful… you have to be careful.”
(More than likely concerning HIV…. My mom was a nurse.)

‘Why did you decide to do this?”
(Which I counter with…
“It’s how I am… it’s not a choice.”
Which she chose to respond with…
“Well you could choose not to be…”
Which I then said…
“I can’t… I would be miserable…
I wouldn’t be able to live that way…
Why do you think I ended up waying almost 300 pounds?!?!
I hated myself… I was miserable…”)

I ended up spending the entire time trying to console and convince…

“It’s not a bad thing… It’s not a bad thing…”

The kicker was when she said…

“We were going to pospone
our moving to the Philippines until you got married…
And have someone to take care of you…”
There will be no one to take care of you…”

That hit me hard…

On a lot of levels…

It drained me…

But at least now the ball is in their court…

And…

To top it all off…

A good friend of the family…
Someone I didn’t know too well…
But was important to many people in my family…
He died today…
Again…
The terms of his death I’ll leave out…
But he was ill of heath…
But lived his life despite it…
I hope he’s ok wherever he is.

Ups and Downs…

Ups and Downs…

So many things…

And I’ve shorted out…